A text by Jeff Foster, specially significant at a moment that my relationship broke because of not being able to see my codependency projected unto my partner.
For me codependency is a major subject in life… I am rather the dependent – meaning that I put a lot of (unconscious) pressure on my partners. Although I am aware that my love does not depend on (the actions of) the other, my inner wound make this hard to handle consciously on a daily basis…
So I tend to fly closely around my partners for attention, love, care and approval.
Obviously as I become more and more aware, the remains of this inner structure complicate my relationships as the pattern is less apparent and I therefore not always detect on time, the true reason for feeling hurt…
Presence, presence, presence… be conscious of your feelings and detect the emotions that you have identified already as part of the pattern.
Then, if you are able, act on your emotions in an adult way rather than react as the wounded inner child that has woken screaming for love and approval.
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It takes courage to listen to someone as they share their joy, fear, anger and pain. To be soft and receptive as you listen. To be aware of your own defences \u2013 your impulses and urges to attack or withdraw, to suppress yourself or suppress the other – and just stay present, and receive ‘what is’. To hear another\u2019s truth, without trying to fix them or advise them, without trying to change their experience in any way. To hear their joy and their pain, their disappointment and their anger too. To hear the effect something you said or did have on them, even if that triggers a big discomfort in you, even if it makes you feel ashamed, or guilty, or afraid. To be aware of your triggers, to honour them, to breathe into them, to let them into the light, to bless them with awareness, but to keep listening. To make it safe for your friend or partner to be vulnerable, to step into their own courage, to tell their truth, the truth that hurts, the truth that frees, the truth that heals. To give them as much space as they need to share. To hold them as they break, as they burn, as they confess, as they tremble with fear or joy. To give them that gift. The gift of relational safety. The gift of active listening.
And it takes courage to speak up, too! To be clear and assertive and direct, yet remain open and delicate. To listen as you speak. To say \u201cno\u201d when you mean no, and \u201cyes\u201d when you mean yes. To tell your raw truth. To let your friend, family member or partner know what is okay for you and what is not, what hurts and what brings joy, what angers you and what makes you feel loved. To let them know if they\u2019ve crossed an invisible line with you, violated a boundary of yours. Maybe they just didn\u2019t know. We are not each other\u2019s mind-readers. To speak your raw honest vulnerability, without blaming them or shaming them, without name-calling, without attack, but without protecting them from your vision either. It is a fine line for sure, and it requires presence, and slowness, and great humility, and a willingness to drop the need to be \u2018right\u2019.
It takes courage to break a life-long addiction to people-pleasing, to putting the feelings and needs of others before your own, to \u201cprotecting\u201d the other from your truth, to silencing or shaming yourself in order to avoid conflict or rejection.
It takes courage to a break a life-long addiction to narcissistic self-absorption, to putting your own feelings and needs before someone else\u2019s, to silencing or trying to change someone in order to avoid your own pain, rejection and fear of abandonment.
It takes courage to be fully present with another and fully present with yourself.
This is the highest possibility of relationship: To weave together a co-created nest of presence, where we both feel safe to share our authentic selves. Where we break codependent bonds, stop trying to control or save or each other, or protect each other from the pain and loss and ecstasy of living, and speak our messy truths, taking fierce ownership of our own pain and joy, our own thoughts and feelings, our own urges and desires, our own values and passions.
In a nest like this, true love can surely blossom.
– Jeff Foster
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El nido de la intimidad – por Jeff Foster.
Requiere coraje el escuchar a alguien cuando comparte su alegr\u00eda, miedo, ira y dolor. El ser suave y receptivo\/a mientras escuchas. El ser consciente de tus propias defensas – tus impulsos y necesidades de atacar o retirarte, de reprimirte a ti mismo\/a o reprimir al otro – y s\u00f3lo estar presente, y recibir “lo que es”. El escuchar la verdad del otro, sin intentar repararlo o aconsejarlo, sin tratar de cambiar su experiencia en ninguna forma. el escuchar su alegr\u00eda y su dolor, su decepci\u00f3n y su ira tambi\u00e9n. El escuchar el efecto que algo que dijiste o hiciste tuvieron en ellos, incluso si eso desencadena una gran incomodidad en ti, incluso si te hace sentir avergonzado\/a, o culpable, o con miedo. El estar consciente de tus detonantes, honrarlos, respirar en ellos, dejarlos entrar en la luz, bendecirlos con consciencia, pero seguir escuchando. El hacer que para tu pareja o amigo sea seguro ser vulnerable, adentrarse en su propio coraje, decir su verdad, la verdad que duele, la verdad que libera, la verdad que sana. El darles tanto espacio como necesitan para compartir. Sostenerlos mientras se quiebran, arden, confiesan, mientras tiemblan de alegr\u00eda o miedo. El darles ese regalo. El regalo de la seguridad en una relaci\u00f3n. El regalo de la escucha activa.
\u00a1Y requiere coraje decir lo que piensas tambi\u00e9n! Ser claro\/a y asertivo\/a y directo\/a, y al mismo tiempo permanecer abierto\/a y delicado\/a. El escuchar mientras hablas. Decir “no” cuando quieres decir no, y “s\u00ed” cuando quieres decir s\u00ed. El decir tu verdad pura. Dejar que tu amigo, familiar o pareja sepan qu\u00e9 est\u00e1 bien para ti y qu\u00e9 no est\u00e1 bien, qu\u00e9 duele y qu\u00e9 trae alegr\u00eda, qu\u00e9 te enoja y qu\u00e9 te hace sentir amado\/a. El dejarlos saber si han cruzado una l\u00ednea invisible contigo, violado un l\u00edmite tuyo. Quiz\u00e1s simplemente no sab\u00edan. No nos podemos leer la mente mutuamente. El contar tu honesta y pura vulnerabilidad, sin culparlos o avergonzarlos, sin decirles nombres, sin ataques, pero sin protegerlos de tu visi\u00f3n. Es una l\u00ednea delgada sin duda, y requiere presencia, y lentitud, y gran humildad, y una voluntad de dejar la necesidad de estar “en lo correcto”.
Requiere coraje romper la adicci\u00f3n a complacer a la gente, a poner los sentimientos y necesidades de otros antes que los tuyos, a “proteger” al otro de tu verdad, a silenciar o avergonzarte a ti mismo\/a para evitar conflicto o rechazo.
Requiere coraje romper con la adicci\u00f3n al egocentrismo narcisista, a poner tus propios sentimientos y necesidades antes de los de los dem\u00e1s, a silenciar o tratar de cambiar a alguien para evitar tu propio dolor, rechazo y miedo al abandono.
Requiere coraje estar completamente presente con otro y completamente presente contigo mismo\/a.
Esta es la m\u00e1s alta posibilidad de las relaciones: el tejer juntos un nido co-creado de presencia, donde ambos nos sintamos seguros para compartir nuestro yo aut\u00e9ntico. Donde rompamos los lazos co-dependientes, paremos de intentar controlar o salvar al otro, o protegernos mutuamente del dolor y la p\u00e9rdida y el \u00e9xtasis de vivir, y digamos nuestra desastrosa verdad, apropi\u00e1ndonos ferozmente de nuestro propio dolor y alegr\u00eda, nuestros propios pensamientos y sentimientos, nuestros propios deseos y necesidades, nuestros propios valores y pasiones.
En un nido como este, el amor de verdad podr\u00e1 seguramente florecer.
– Jeff Foster<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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